Thursday, January 14, 2010

Winter Blues Already??

I don't know what's wrong with me these days.  I'm beginning to wonder if I'm getting the 'winter blues' early this year.  I can't seem to find the energy to do much of anything that doesn't desperately need be done.  I have a mountain of laundry, half of Christmas is still hanging around, meals have been meals but nothing fancy, the house is a mess, and it's a wonder the dust in our bedroom doesn't cause a fatal asthma attack.  I really want to make Ella a tutu for dance class (the other 2 have one), but I can't even make the effort to get my sewing machine back out.

I hate when I get like this.  It makes me feel like such a fraud; a fat, lazy, fraud.  I live in fear that someone will come to the door and want in the house and see the mess.  I'll get turned in to the 'Mommy Police' and then everyone will find out I'm a failure.


Anonymous said...

Don't be so hard on yourself. Just think, one person, one job at a time- Look at Niki's quote on her side bar, it's really helpful in this area. I've had so many periods like what you're experiencing and yes I'm hard on myself too- then one day I'll be ready and back in action. I feel like I've just come out of one of those times, you helped me through and have inspired me to new heights! Hang in friend!

Diann said...

Paula, I get the winter blues, too. I just keep telling myself that spring is on the way. Hey, we're half-way through January already, so that's a good thing, right?! To make matters worse for me this winter, I had to give up my job (the restaurant started opening on Sunday's and everyone HAD to work.) Not me, so I had to "retire", a bit early. Then on top of that, five weeks ago my hubby had to have a cancer spot removed from the back of his head. It left a sizable hole, about the size of a half-dollar. They got all the cancer cells and his head is healing nicely; then two weeks ago, this bit with his teeth/new dentures. Too much happening all at the same time, and I'm such a worrier, anyway! But it will all work out, and like I said, spring is on the way! Hang in!

Paula said...

Thanks girls. Diann, you and your hubby are in my thoughts, you've certainly been having a hard time lately.

It's hard to think spring right now because I know Feb/March are the worst part of winter up here. We're starting our January thaw (4 whole days above 0C) but then back to the freezer. Part of the problem is that we can't get out (except for groceries), I'm not even walking down to the highway for the mail. We've got a number of mangy (hopefully not rabid) coyotes hanging around. It's so bad Colin has his gun with him in the barn. There were footprints right up at the house the other day. Colin got rid of a couple of them but I'm scared to take Ella outside.

Just need to get my act in gear and some clothes in the washing machine :)